Episodes

  • "Interfaith Debate: Should Different Religions Ever Marry?" | ft. @HalfPastChai (ep 9)
    Jul 14 2024

    Oo la la! Today is a juicy episode--one of the most polarizing questions--should people of different faiths (and races) marry? Is it even possible to make work? Would that be a disaster? How would you raise your family? What holidays would you celebrate? What would be the hardest part?

    We cover all of that and more in today's episode. Please let me know your thoughts in the comments below!


    Instagram Links:

    Half Past Chai - https://www.instagram.com/halfpastchai

    Suketu Patel - https://www.instagram.com/suketuvpatel

    Hallie Patel - https://www.instagram.com/halliegpatel

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    1 hr and 30 mins
  • Ex-Cult Member ROASTS Jubilee’s Mormons vs Ex-Mormons! (ep 8)
    Mar 5 2024

    Oh what a fun video! Jubilee recently posted an episode on Mormons vs. Ex-Mormons—this is me reacting to that video. I of course grew up Fundamentalist Mormon, so I will also share additional historical context from a Fundamentalist Mormon perspective. LINKS 1) Original Jubilee Video: https://youtu.be/Run1f29po8g?si=UbPR9Jmi82ZckQHX 2) When I was on Jubilee: https://youtu.be/6p1nWGmdEUM?si=a0yrYReXVSb0_6uv 3) Cultured Episode on Masturbation: https://youtu.be/7aqXnhCsyI8 4) Episode with Johnny Harris: https://youtu.be/TDp0oh4qrzA 5) The Anthony Padilla Episode: https://youtu.be/I_rF4qkEFys?si=shsq9MS3WeewOfN1 TIMESTAMPS 00:00:00 Teaser 00:00:54 Podcast Intro 00:01:52 Who is Calvin Wayman and why this video? 00:07:56 Reaction starts -- “Mormonism is a cult.” 00:16:03 Mormon Obama?! 00:28:11 "The Mormon Church Welcomes the LGBTQ Community.” 00:32:48 The silliest moment in the entire Jubilee episode *face palm* 00:43:52 The LDS Church is constantly changing 00:47:37 “Masturbation is sinful.” 00:48:45 “Women and men are equal in the Church.” 00:55:35 Tember makes a slip! 00:58:14 Even the Pro-Mormon Woman Says This! 01:12:01 "It's okay for doctrine to change.” 01:17:05 The most racist belief in Mormonism. 01:19:37 How Mormon Leadership Hides History from Members. 01:12:19 Mormon leaders hide their roots to polygamy. 01:24:14 How Barrack Obama broken the Mormon Mind. 01:31:25 The origin story that led to racism in the LDS Church. 01:40:08 The LDS Church's secret curse: "the skin of blackness.” 01:47:34 Mormon leaders switching stances 01:51:44 “The Mormon Church has done good in the world.” 01:58:42 Ending the Jubilee Vid. 01:59:44 My final takeway message.


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    2 hrs and 2 mins
  • “Is Joe Biden a Polygamist?” (REVEALING THE TRUTH ABOUT DIFFERENT CULTURES) | ft.@BrettConti (ep 7)
    Jan 28 2024

    What a fun, full-circle moment this episode is for me. A few years ago when I had almost no money and I was still living in a small town, I wanted to make living in New York feel possible, more normal. So I would go to YouTube and search “Day in the life of a New Yorker.” 


    And whose videos popped up? Today’s guest, Brett Conti. 


    We dive into the life of a YouTuber, and also talk about different cultures, including what it was like for me growing up in polygamy with 4 moms and 44 siblings. 


    Can anyone imagine if Joe Biden came out and said that he was going to be a polygamist like that was just normal? 


    Anyways, I dive into that and more on this episode. Please comment to let me know what you think! (Also, I like your curiosity—it shapes future episodes. Questions are entirely welcomed)


    TIMESTAMPS

    00:00:00 Teaser and intro 

    00:01:57 Special message from Calvin

    00:03:26 “Can being a content creator make you more self-aware?” (Plus, how New Yorkers say “coffee.”)

    00:05:52 “I’m getting goosebumps” (Calvin shares how Brett inspired him to move to New York City).

    00:09:25 How growing up in New York City fostered open-mindedness in Brett.

    00:14:10 “Brett, how did you get into YouTube?”

    00:19:49 How Brett used his clothing business to make YouTube videos.

    00:21:03 “"How do you know what type of content to make?" (The importance of leading with self-discovery).

    00:23:04 “How did you make your first $1000 on YouTube?"

    00:27:44 "What was the 1 video that changed everything?"

    00:29:31 “Did Brett believe in himself in the beginning?”

    00:30:00 Why Calvin got into content—the most “impossible” thing at the time. 

    00:34:22 The moment Brett realized this YouTube dream was working.

    00:38:03 Thailand.

    00:48:18 “Did you know which one was your mom?” Calvin shares what it was like growing up in polygamy.

    00:53:16 Arranged Marriages in Fundamentalist Mormonism.

    01:01:33 "Are you still close with any of your family now?” (Brett asks Calvin about the family dynamics).

    01:04:21 How New York City actually reminds Calvin of growing up in polygamy.

    01:06:25 What’s next for Brett?

    01:09:26 Ending on the Deep End

    01:14:07 Thank you for watching! Please subscribe!

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    1 hr and 15 mins
  • “Is the LDS Church a Cult?” (DECODING REAL HISTORY OF MORMONISM) | ft. Johnny Harris
    Dec 20 2023

    YouTuber Johnny Harris grew up in Mormonism (LDS), and YouTuber Calvin Wayman, also grew up in Mormonism—but a different branch known as Fundamentalist Mormonism. In this episode, they explore the shared history of the Church. 


    Inquiry and curiosity led both of them out. In this episode, Calvin and Johnny compare and contrast their journeys, while also sharing some key moments in Mormon history that aren’t often talked about. 


    TIMESTAMPS

    00:00:00 Teaser and intro 

    00:02:27 Special message from Calvin

    00:03:31 “There’s a level of stress that just doesn’t go away, you can’t escape it!” Calvin talks Johnny Harris about his successful YouTube career (Episode begins)

    00:05:19 “What would you do differently?” (Calvin asks Johnny for creator-advice)

    00:06:47 Johnny and Calvin were both terrible employees.

    00:08:57 “I was in two different worlds” (Johnny explains living in Mormonism in Oregon)

    00:09:59 Swapping “crack” stories—when Calvin and Johnny started to realize that Mormonism didn’t have a monopoly on Truth. 

    00:13:19 “It’s when I had a kid!” (How becoming a dad made Johnny start to doubt Mormonism)

    00:15:24 “I forced myself to have mystical experiences.” (Johnny explains who he was in Mormonism and how began to be more true to his nature)

    00:17:07 “I knew in my body that this wasn’t working. There was a deep tension. I can’t bull-shit with myself anymore.”

    00:18:05 Calvin shares one of his choice points for leaving

    00:18:33 The “Mormon” Shelf (explaining mental thought-traps)

    00:20:50 Johnny's “big critique” with the Mormon Church 

    00:22:48 “Everything crumbled for me.” (The moment Johnny left.)

    00:23:59 Introducing our shared fore-father—Joseph Smith, founder of Mormonism

    00:24:44 Johnny becoming an apologist.

    00:25:49 The shared history (and “secret conflict”) of Fundamentalist Mormons and “Regular” Mormons

    00:26:35 How polygamy “really” ended in Mormonism (Not what you've heard)

    00:28:03 Mass ex-communications on a significant minority in the LDS Church (Learning "the Truth")

    00:29:07 External motivations the Church had to end polygamy.

    00:30:42 The LDS Church becoming more "palatable" 

    00:33:11 “I did not know about this, this is really juicy stuff!” (Calvin shares "proof" why Fundamentalists are right and the LDS Church is wrong)

    00:38:47 “The best story wins.” (How Mormon beliefs have persisted)

    00:40:28 “I feel the spirit right now talking about it.” (The good parts of Mormonism)

    00:45:56 The different experiences between men and women in Mormonism (and best part about being ex-mormon)

    00:49:15 After leaving: “It’s a reclaiming” of your story.

    00:50:26 “Red lines” — knowing how to talk about our stories without being disrespectful to those who still believe. 

    00:53:26 Choosing how to discuss hot-button history.

    00:56:43 “I was washed over with a genuine sense of thrill.” (Embracing uncertainty in a post-Mormon world)

    00:59:29 Calvin shares his new-found joy in the simple things

    01:00:14 Ending on the deep end—Calvin asks Johnny “What are you most proud of?”

    01:01:56 “What in your 20s built the most self-respect?” 


    01:03:11 “What are you most grateful for about life now?”

    01:04:39 Final thoughts


    About Johnny Harris:

    Johnny Harris is an American filmmaker, journalist, and YouTube. To learn more about him and his experience with the LDS Church, go to one of the videos below:


    1. “Why I Left the Mormon Church” - https://youtu.be/aTMsfOcHiJg?si=ZpeoLkXSE6jrYTPt
    2. “The REAL Story of the Mormon Church.” - https://youtu.be/hUW7j9GmXjI?si=_0UsCclKEnBgYq8r


    About Calvin Wayman: 

    Hey I’m Calvin. I grew up in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult that practices polygamy, known as “The Work of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.” I have 1 dad, 4 moms, and 44 siblings. Yup. That’s not a typo—forty plus four. All in one house.

    The last few years have been me getting my feet under me, and today I live in New York City.

    Catch more of my story here: “What Was It Like Growing Up in a Cult?” - https://youtu.be/kBlQ22wIbnA?si=0QNw_e_S1ZZXZ5m9


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    1 hr and 6 mins
  • "Does Your Cult Smell Like My Cult?" (COMPARING OUR CULTS!) | ft. Amanda Rae
    Nov 20 2023

    Someone in Amanda’s cult cut her neck when she tried to escape?! WTF is the “3-Wife Rule?” How did Fundamentalist Mormon cults start? And did the LDS Church have anything to do with it? Amanda Rae is back on the pod! This is a fun conversation that dives in a lot of different topics, all things cult.


    TIMESTAMPS

    00:00:00 Teaser and Intro

    00:01:38 Did Amanda turn into Calvin? (Episode begins)

    00:03:48 Setting the conversation - comparing cults
    00:05:55 Amanda's life in "The Order"

    00:08:37 The "3 Wife" Rule
    00:10:52 David Kingston

    00:13:41 Narcissism and double-standards

    00:18:23 The lack of accountability in Mormon cults

    00:22:27 “The worst sin ever!” according to cult leader, John Timpson

    00:25:54 Cult leaders are not always cult founders - How Warren Jeffs took power

    00:32:58 Amanda has an epiphany!

    00:34:43 What made Amanda start questioning her cult?

    00:36:42 “Put It on the Shelf" — Mormon mind-tricks
    00:40:25 Amanda’s first date is at Panda Express lol (How marriages happen)

    00:44:38 Amanda is bleeding!

    00:54:01 Why leaving a cult triggers existing members

    00:56:28 Silly beliefs from Calvin and Amanda’s upbringing (Calvin plays audio when he was 8 years old)

    01:02:24 Amanda explains “Numbered Men” 

    01:07:30 Amanda's dad secretly listened to her content

    01:11:14 “Faith over questioning” - Order teaching

    01:12:46 Calvin and Amanda finding their place in the world, post-cult

    01:15:22 How the LDS Church created Fundamentalist Mormonism

    01:21:26 The hardest parts of leaving a cult

    01:23:37 Amanda finding benefits in “hard things”

    01:25:20 Calvin deliberately choosing "hard" 

    01:32:10 The necessity of adopting whole new paradigms when leaving a cult

    01:37:05 Calvin fell into depression after leaving, and the mindset that got him out of it

    01:44:21 One of Calvin’s favorite quotes—“A mind full of conclusion has…” 

    01:47:10 Final thoughts

    01:51:03 Please leave comments! And subscribe. It will help future episodes! SHOW-NOTES About Amanda Rae: Amanda Rae was in the show “Escaping Polygamy.” She has a YouTube channel where she exposes the teachings of the cult she was born into. You can catch her full story by going here: About Calvin Wayman: Hey I’m Calvin. I grew up in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult that practices polygamy, known as “The Work of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.” I have 1 dad, 4 moms, and 44 siblings. Yup. That’s not a typo—forty plus four. All in one house. At 30 years old, I made the most difficult decision of my life and faced hell fire and damnation (according to my religious upbringing) by choosing to leave my religion, and start a whole new life on my own. The last few years have been me getting my feet under me, and today I live in New York City. This show is my expression. My perspectives. My art. I hope to bring awareness to cults, but more importantly, to the underrated power of individual sovereignty. Above all, this is a podcast that celebrates curiosity over conclusion. I hope you enjoy.

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    1 hr and 53 mins
  • Is sex for marriage ONLY? | ft. Laura Desiree (Ep 4)
    Nov 8 2023

    Oh my oh my. What an episode. If I would have told my 15-year old self that I would be sitting down talking with someone you can search on p*rnhub, he would have either felt like he was in heaven, or he was definitely on his way to hell. 


    And that’s the conundrum on this episode. Is pleasure inherently good or bad? Why is it so difficult to talk about?
    Laura Desiree, who was a long-time anchor at Naked News, is a burlesque dancer, sex-positivity advocate, and just all around a curious cat. This is one of my favorite conversations I’ve had to date since moving to New York City. Laura and I just get candid and have real conversation about something we all are either engaged in, thinking about, or at the very least are the product of (and yet! It’s still a shameful thing to discuss in many circles). 


    Through episodes like this one, I hope to spark more conversations around things we are taught to keep silent, because having the freedom to discuss them can have a major impact on all of our lives.


    Please subscribe to the channel if you haven’t already! It helps the algorithm know to share this with more audience, and gets me one step closer to content-creation being my full-time thing.


    Thank you for watching, listening and your all-around support. I hope you enjoy this episode. 


    - Calvin Wayman


    Laura’s Red Umbrella Talk: 

    https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLZMA-fZofRcXfFdIq4EfN9fK9WF73TOcv


    To catch Calvin's full story of growing up in a cult, go here:

    https://open.spotify.com/episode/1B1s5SL3PKGVg1YSRXoEW4?si=e294bea8deee41f0


    TIMESTAMPS

    00:00:00 Intro and Teaser

    00:01:16 Calvin met Laura where?!

    00:03:45 What Calvin felt going to a s*x club

    00:04:28 The taboo nature of s*x

    00:06:36 What monogamists can learn from people in the s*x lifestyle

    00:08:35 How silence around s*xual needs breeds resentment

    00:09:31 Calvin's unpopular take in relationships

    00:11:15 The importance of taking care of your s*xual needs

    00:13:04 One of Calvin's favorite things from s*x-positive spaces

    00:15:56 How did Laura become Laura?

    00:18:01 Laura breaking her "twinship" identity

    00:23:49 How Laura began making her own life

    00:25:21 Finding authenticity through the journey of s*xual-discovery

    00:26:39 Orgasms

    00:28:30 The art of “letting go” & Calvin notices a paradox

    00:30:52 Bettie Page

    00:32:40 Communicating your needs to another human

    00:33:54 A sexy hack Laura learned at the "New York School of Burlesque"

    00:36:00 What got Laura into s*x work?

    00:38:51 The benefits of doing what scares you (like getting naked in front of strangers)

    00:42:07 How Laura got into Naked News

    00:42:40 Siri (or the Illuminati) joins the conversation

    00:44:21 "Dirty talk"

    00:46:04 When is it "taking it too far?"

    00:50:51 The stigma with s*xual freedom and s*x work

    00:55:45 Self-pleasure as a “sin”

    00:58:37 Realizing that s*x is okay

    00:59:41 Ending on the deep end: What Laura is most proud of from her teenaged-self

    01:02:08 Laura reflects gives “unorthodox answer” to what she’s most proud of from her 20’s

    01:03:56 Laura's first one-night stand

    01:06:44 Calvin’s first one-night stand

    01:09:17 Laura's favorite thing about life

    01:11:53 Calvin says something that 99% of people wouldn't

    01:13:32 Laura gives everyone a s*xual dare

    01:16:47 Follow Laura's socials!

    01:17:28 Final thoughts - please subscribe!

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    1 hr and 19 mins
  • Is it okay to masturbate while Mormon? | ft. Chrisie Allen (Ep 3)
    Sep 16 2023

    This is the most controversial piece of content I've ever made to the internet. Please don't cancel me lol


    As someone who grew up Fundamentalist Mormon, I can't think of anything more scary or intimidating to talk about than...well, "seggs." (You know what I'm talking about. I spelled it internet-friendly) So why not jump into the deep end and talk about seggs with a Seggs Worker?


    Insta @sexyexmo

    YouTube.com/@sexyexmo


    TIMESTAMPS

    00:00:00 Teaser

    00:00:51 Intro

    00:01:42 Cold Start

    00:03:18 What's a Molly Mormon? 

    00:04:19 Why this episode might get me cancelled

    00:06:17 How Chrisie discovers masturb*tion

    00:08:06 Can mastur*tion make you go blind??

    00:11:18 Does God get mad if you masturbate? 

    00:13:09 Chrisie's rocky road in and out of the LDS Church

    00:15:59 My rant about Mormonism

    00:19:42 Mormons would win gold in this sport every time

    00:21:20 Chrisie continues her story out of the Mormon church

    00:22:23 First porn mag

    00:22:56 Chrisie at BYU

    00:24:23 Confessing to old white men

    00:27:11 How Chrisie got out

    00:30:37 Another Mormonism rant--judgement based on what you were taught

    00:32:49 Chrisie's Marriage

    00:33:49 Mormon Confidence

    00:36:05 The Mormon videogame - having your calling and election made sure

    00:39:45 "If it's Priesthood, it's yes." 

    00:44:03 Mormonism hijacking regular human experiences

    00:44:44 The reason I felt sad to get baptized

    00:47:13 Chrisie finally leaves her marriage

    00:49:57 How Chrisie left Mormonism

    00:51:26 "The garments"

    00:56:03 One thing everyone owes to themselves--whether they are religious or not

    00:59:30 Chrisie comes out to her family

    01:01:15 The religion I'm in now.

    01:02:28 Chrisie's final straw

    01:03:30 When I met my first S*x Worker

    01:05:40 What got Chrisie into s*x work?

    01:12:53 Olive oil has super powers--not like you might think

    01:15:15 What Chrisie is up to now

    01:17:52 Parting thoughts

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    1 hr and 21 mins
  • How does someone ESCAPE a cult? (Ep 2)
    Aug 26 2023

    Everyone thinks growing up in a cult is hard. But, that's not the hard part. The most difficult part of all is LEAVING. In this Part-2 episode, my friend Amanda and I are back in the studio. I share my story of what led up to me leaving, I share the racism in the cult, and how I finally got myself to make the decision...to then uproot my entire life and start over, at age 30.


    TIMESTAMPS 00:00 Teaser and Trigger Warning 00:17 Intro 01:08 Sound check 02:09 "What's the best compliment you've ever been given?" 03:19 "Is this incentuous?" 04:52 Starting the episode 05:44 Su*c*de Ideation 07:15 The Worst Curse Word On the Planet 08:14 Amanda continues story about feeling su*c*dal 11:04 The meaning of life (according to Mormons) 12:09 I continue my story (Noticing Overt Racism in Fundamentalist Mormonism) 14:29 The religious story of how everyone got their skin color 25:05 I start telling others about my upbringing, and begin traveling 26:54 The realization I had looking out my window of a flight 29:56 Experiencing Hell 33:01 Origin of my internal conflicts 33:25 Reaching my decision point 33:49 The moment my life changed—the audio-note. 41:48 Personal reflections on that moment of the audio-note 43:38 Willful Blindness as a means of protection 46:12 "How the h*ll did you do that, Calvin?" 49:01 Beginning my transition out of the cult 50:48 Lessons from leaving 53:46 Looking ahead to future episodes (Wait…is that Kelly Slater??!)

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    58 mins