I’ve been married for 25 years now and not once has my Beloved received a paycheck. There has been no income that I could count on and budget for, and no dependency of what he’ll bring in each month. All this equates to me living with no financial stability throughout our marriage. It’s always been this way because he’s been self-employed his entire working life.

Here’s what I said to my new groom about my new reality:
“How on earth do you live like this?” That was code for: I freaked out! “

How do you pay bills and what do you have to rely on? 

And how much money do you know you’ll make? 

How do you plan anything?”

Can you say Control Freak? That’s what I was. I can't help but laugh now when I hear how other women call themselves that. I totally get it! Yes, I was one, but the Lord, in His precious ways took a chisel to me and started chipping those controlling issues away. 

Of course I still revert back to my old ways from time to time, kinda like a dog returning to it’s vomit like the Scriptures say. But looking back over all those years, that young bride’s faith in Christ grew tremendously! My faith increased greatly over the next several years and it was all because I had to learn how to rely on the Lord.

It's easy to worry since we face a lot of unknowns, especially in today's world with wars and rumors of wars. As well as a possible recession on the horizon with banks shutting down. It's all unnerving.

In today's episode, I'm tacking the subject of feeling anxious and worried as a Believer.

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