When his rap group, Oops! All James broke up, James went his own way and gave up on his career for several years. After taking a long hiatus, he eventually came back and recorded this track. Lyrics:I haven't rapped in some time or touched a pen to the paperI haven't laughed, I haven't rhymed, and joy's a foreign behaviorI'm strugglin' and I'm jugglin' with all the feelings in my heartI'm bundlin' up the feelings and wishin' I had a fresh startBecause I'm done with all the fame and I don't wanna be a starYou see I watched the biography, and feelings hit me like a carWhen I looked back at my life, feels like I've come so farBut accomplished so little for such a large repitoireWith no friends or no relations, because I tank every oneI don't where Charlie's at. No idea how she's doneBut see I've read the reviews even the one by Nance S.I wanted to be a star but instead I lost one I guess'Cause I had a moment with Charlotte there but we threw it all awayTurned all our ups back into downs and all our colors turned to grayWe tried to go back on tour but the relationships cavedIt just wasn't meant to be I guess. Anyway,It's toxic when she's here but I do get lonely when she's goneShe reminds me of my mom, like the fighting, it makes me calmI often wonder why I always used to take the abuseI often think it gave me something to ... aspire toOr maybe it let me stand still because I know I'll never make itIt's peaceful when I'm stagnant, standing still and just complacentIt's hard making something of myself and not just wealthLacking purpose, feeling aimless, feeling worthless, hollow, famelessAll the kids I used rap for don't know what my name isAnd all the bitterness I have, it's on me and I'm not blamelessI just think it's easier to point fingers back at the past and just sayIt's Charlie and Alison, it's my father, and it's my gangIt's the violence and the deaths I experienced along the wayI'm not a lost Lamb the fault was oops all JamesI paved the way for myself, I know, and I accept all the blameI decided to break the rules when I decided to play the gameAnd homie I'm tired. Sleeping for months in travel takes its tollI'm like a young man's mind in an old man's soulI don't know what I'm gonna do, feel I've got nowhere to goI just wanted to share my thoughts to whoever needs to be toldDon't waste your life, homie. Figure this shit out while you're youngThe infinite black is finite, you blink twice and it's goneAnd you'll look back like I have, reflecting on all that's been doneCause a busted cap can't be unbusted once it's left the fuckin gunTo whoever may be listenin'. Peace y'all.Jiggity James Lamb, signing off. -------Want to hear Odyssey Episode Zero? Here are ways you can access it!1. Make a pledge athttps://www.patreon.com/TimeToDieRPGor2. Use your Discord Nitro account to give our server a boosthttps://discord.com/invite/j9EaDRVor3. Purchase the episode on Ko-Fihttps://ko-fi.com/s/732f6cfa8bFormat: .mp3 FileTotal Runtime: 2:22:54Quality: Similar to our other Odyssey episodes, but we had to use Wesley and Tim's Discord audio. ----------------------Website:http://timetodierpg.com/ Support us by making a pledge on Patreonhttps://www.patreon.com/TimeToDieRPGOr you can donate money through Ko-Fihttps://ko-fi.com/timetodierpgCheck out our merch at SoNerdWear.com! (Use the promo code TimeToDie at checkout for 10% off your entire purchase.)https://sonerdwear.com/timetodieWant to hang out and even play D&D with us? Join our Discord server!https://discord.gg/j9EaDRVYou can also follow us on Twitter:https://twitter.com/TimeToDieRPGInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/timetodierpg/And YouTube:https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCVaj0OGnO8neV_9ErNYuVGw ★ Support this podcast on Patreon ★
